3 Month Mark
Sandy Folkman
August 25th 2018
3 Months of Missing Brooke. 3 months of seeking Peace, Hope, Understanding. 3 months of gaining Peace, Hope Understanding... and then losing it. 3 months of getting up every. single. day. Seeking that peace again, and again, and again. I didn't know I could hurt this much this much and survive.
Brooke continues to teach me and tutor me with her simple Faith in our Savior Jesus Christ. He was her lifeline through life's grief, heartaches and pain. She got up every day and continued reaching towards the light, right up until the day she was called home. How thankful I am for My loving Savior who is quite literally carrying me through.
A deeply touching writing from Brooke's notebook:
"You will never understand the pain and heartache I experienced. You will never realize how much hurt my soul had wracked upon it and how low I was in the pit of despair. No matter how hard I try to explain it to you, no matter how hard you try to come to terms with my life story and try to feel or understand what I went though, you won’t be able to. Ever. No one will… except My kind and merciful Savior, Jesus Christ, who was there going through it all with me every step of the way. Every raging outburst, every stabbing pain I felt of guilt from the sins I’d comitted, every tear that flowed from my tired eyes and fell to the ground of desolate wilderness, He was there.
I was not alone; and neither are You." - Brooke
I Love You My Precious Brookie! Thank you for all you continue to teach me. As I deeply mourn your sudden departure, I am clinging to the hope that comes to each of One of us through our Savior Jesus Christ.
"While many thousands of others truly mourn for the loss of their kindred, yet they rejoice and exult in the hope, and even know, according to the promises of the Lord, that they are raised to dwell at the right hand of God, in a state of never-ending happiness."- Alma 28:12
